…is good news.
This is sort of a dump of emotions. Bear with me…
We have not heard anything from the interview. I guess the good news is we haven’t received a rejection letter, but every day on that drive home I wonder if the mail will hold the end of this quest.
No news is driving me bonkers.
No news means I’m second guessing everything I said in the interview. Then I realize by doing that I’m relying on my own self to prove I’m good enough rather than allowing God to be in charge here.
Zoanna, one of my blog friends comforted me by saying “I don’t think the interviewer was listening for all the right words, but the heart of care and joy and desire to take in needy kids.”
Okay, so some moments I’m very calm and collected and at peace with whatever outcome might come. Others, I’m excited, still looking forward to this new opportunity and planning a move. Other times I’m already comforting myself that its okay if we don’t get the position and God knows best.
At times I can think of all the great reasons why I want to work with the children and my better qualities that would make me a great house parent and the good things that can come of this. Other times I see a pile of paper or clutter in my own home or have an intense moment with k over why she hasn’t done her homework and question if I truly am what they need.
All that can be said now is “I trust you God, I trust you God.”
Please continue to pray with us that God’s will be done.
If you need an update on how we got to the interview start here:
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