Please share in my moment of joy.
My daughter is special. She brings me joy. There are so many little unique things about her I could go on and on and on. As I’m sure you could about your child as well. All of God’s children are special.
Now don’t get me wrong, we have our struggles and battles. We have smelly socks and dirty closets. We forget to comb our hair and pick up our room.
But sometimes she simply amazes me. k has struggles with language development and as a result she is sometimes reserved when meeting new people or in new surroundings. Quite often she just gets worried, fearful, and sometimes panics about seemingly small things to me.
But Friday, June 3, 2011, she had absolutely no problem standing in front of a packed school cafeteria to sing, a cappella style “Here I am to Worship” for the public school talent show. Just a few days prior to the talent show she was ready to back out because she was concerned people would laugh at her because she wasn’t good enough. After a few encouraging talks she decided to participate and continued practicing on her own.
No one laughed. One teacher told me she wept.
This day was already emotion packed for me:
- It was my baby’s last day in the elementary school.
- I was saying goodbye to staff I had become friends with during that time.
- I stayed up late the night before getting the teacher cards written and was tired.
- My dad was having his surgery to remove his kidney that same morning at almost the same time as the talent show. Lovely timing. God’s timing.
All of these things contributed to me having a hard time maintaining my composure as we distributed gifts to the various teachers and staff. There were tears and hugs and promises to come back to see everyone, but you know how that is. Life gets busy and you just don’t go to places you don’t have to go because you have somewhere else you do have to go. I knew it would be rare occasions when I would see these wonderful friends.
I didn’t have the best seat in the house since the students sat in the center of the cafeteria and the parents sat/stood around the outside edges and in the back. I had previously asked the music teacher if she would let k go at the beginning so I could leave to go to the hospital after she sang. I grabbed a spot on the side by the door and got an odd angle on the video.
I’m not sure what is wrong with the settings on my phone camera, but its taking awful videos right now. I guess the blurring makes it safe for me to share since I don’t have all those other kids permissions. However, the sound is quite lovely. I think you will be able to sense what we all felt when her clear, sweet voice rang out in praise to our God.
I cut off the video before the clapping because I wanted to applaud her also. She was so sweet and grinned ear to ear at the applause and hesitated a moment wondering what to do next until she finally made her way off the stage awkwardly.
My father’s surgery went wonderful. The surgeon said it was perfect and he saw no signs the cancer had spread. The other kidney is doing its job. My father is recovering nicely and is already home. The pathology report came back yesterday and confirmed no more cancer. My father will not have any follow up chemo or radiation.
“Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that You’re my God
You’re altogether lovely
All together worthy,
All together wonderful to me.”